THE FIRST REALIZATION OF EMPTINESS AND TIME
when You described Your first experience of samadhi, You told us about amazing details of the smell of humanity; but what about human thoughts?
Guruji: that was the smell of their thoughts: a chemical reaction to the physical. Every smell comes from the mind. You can smell it on them. Thoughts in the form of smell.
I thought You could read thoughts in that state?
Guruji: you’re too shocked to read anything.
and in the next stage of samadhi, without going into suspended animation: is it possible then?
Guruji: that’s why I like to remain away from outside society.
so even without Your will You could catch someone’s thought?
Guruji: I’ve learned how to insulate myself from it.
have You experienced that Your brain activity influenced the surroundings?
Guruji: it is influencing them.
they changed their behaviour…?
Guruji: …Either they disappear. You cannot insulate your effect.
You told us when You became aware of the consciousness of the Void; does it mean that the consciousness of the Void has some thoughts in it?
Guruji: it’s the ocean of consciousness. Every thought is there.
so the Void is thinking?
Guruji: conscious.
and Time is also conscious?
Guruji: yes.
is it possible to catch separate thoughts there?
Guruji: how can you catch a separate wave in the ocean? Awareness of the Void started in late 1988.
when did You understand that it was the Void? Or was it immediate?
Guruji: of course — I became aware of it!
is it possible to compare it with human consciousness: that it has thoughts, emotions, feelings?
Guruji: less than 2% is very easy: no comparison. We should not compare.
and we cannot say that it’s the depth of the subconscious within consciousness: it’s all one?
Guruji: yesterday I gave a very good answer: do you care for the bacteria living in your stomach? He said — I’m working very hard to keep their kitchen running.
I became aware of the Void in August–September 1988.
how did You feel then?
Guruji: it was impossible to adjust for quite a long time. I couldn’t remain with the family; I had to move out. I had to move away to a bigger space.
and was the Void aware of You at that moment?
Guruji: I think so, yes. It was aware of me from the beginning; but I saw it after I became aware of it. It’s too scary. And it will remain so.
and the awareness of Time: when did it come?
Guruji: very soon after that.
and what is more scary?
Guruji: it’s a close competition. The first emotions are fear and shock.
but they feel like different forces?
Guruji: yes, you are able to see them separately.
interesting, can they both be perceived like Ardhanarishwar?
Guruji: this understanding came much later. After 2 years — or maybe even 3–3.5 years. Even if you go through some experience, it will take years to understand it. By discussing intellectually, no understanding comes.
so those forces recognized You when You recognized them?
Guruji: that’s the beginning of the problem: when they see that you are aware of them.
could You say that they became happy?
Guruji: I think they just accept it. Or I was too small to see the depth of what they were feeling.
then and now: is Your awareness different?
Guruji: it is much deeper, yes.
so maybe now You can say more about their reactions and feelings?
Guruji: they are taking good care of me. (smiling)
but it’s amazing — to talk about the feelings of the Void and the feelings of Time!
Guruji: I think they made me talk. I was not talking at all before. And we are not worshipping the past either: we have learned a lot from the past, but we are not worshipping it. It’s the first step towards realizing the present moment. Atit Ghat: never forget that word!
Guruji, when You realized the Void and Time: was it simultaneously outside and inside Your body?
Guruji: no, first outside. Even though I became aware of them in the first experience of samadhi, I was not able to diagnose what they were; that came later. The body represents Void and Time; God is inside my heart, my spirit is inside me: that means God, the spirit, the Void and Time are part of my physical existence — that is another big realization. So physical existence is not just physical existence: it carries everything inside. That’s why it is so interesting and important!
when the yogi is established in the present moment, his body no longer represents the past — so he is like frozen in time?
Guruji: by then, I think most of his chemical compositions will become different. His DNA will be clean. The present moment is in all time: in the past and future also; he will be aware of everything!
when You felt these two forces inside Your body: how was it?
Guruji: when you are aware of these things — aware of where they are — that gives you a very different perspective on so many things.
could You differentiate in Your body: this is Time and this is space?
Guruji: now I can see that.
when Kalabhairav first appeared — was that the moment when six lines of Time were created?
Guruji: they were already inside Time; then slowly we discovered that. We are still not aware of how many timelines there might be. These six are the basic ones.
all the creatures that disappeared after the Mahabharata — like rakshasas or gandharvas — maybe they just shifted to another timeline?
Guruji: from the science-fiction point of view, it may be a possibility.
so there are six main timelines and billions of other timelines?
Guruji: six are on Earth: Earth is the crossroads where the six lines are crossing.
does every one of these six lines have its own calculation of Time?
Guruji: yes, different. And beyond Earth — there are countless.
about the 15 Kalas of the Moon and the development of the brain — does reaching the 16th Kala grant access to the second line of Time?
Guruji: possibly; because 15 Kalas are the progression of your development: the 16th Kala remains unseen. That is the higher state of a fully developed mind. From this point of view, it will remain unseen.