Who am I? Self-inquiry, identity and individuality

I will tell you about one incident. Once I was visiting my sister. And she had a neighbor – the old man, who thought that everything is bhram, all things are illusion. And when he knew that I am a yogi he came to argue with me rather than discuss things. But then Guru’s grace was on me so it hasted him. He came and directly asked me: “Who practices yoga?” What he meant was whether the soul is practicing or the body is practicing. No matter what you’d answer and the argument would start. But as Guru was blessing me so I asked: “Who is asking the question?” Then I experimented – I gave him choicest bad words in hindi. Very very very powerful words. And suddenly he became very angry: “Why you have no manners to talk with elderly person?” Then I said again: “Who is saying bad words and who is listening? I do not see you I see only bhram.” And he went away saying: “He is a good man.” So this is the philosophy.

So the the almost all wise people have told us to think ponder who am I and many people keep thinking who am I and and Shalin Sharma's take on that is when you will go deeper into this thing who am I you will become aware of the consciousness which is making you think yes I am and then you start to ask question who am I so when you will begin to explore the consciousness you will begin to Keep it's a big ocean of consciousness inside which we call the mind. Mhm. So you go on go on go on exploring the mind also. Then you will realize that because you are alive that's how the mind came and the consciousness started and the feeling that you are beginning. So you start to

so the practice is like the key to this information? How this information is unpacking?

Guruji: see, whatever information or wisdom is coming your way - is coming to your brain and your mind. And only yoga practice develops your brain – so you will have it more. This is the brain or our mind, who is getting all the knowledge and wisdom. So, be smart enough to see that; and start to develop your tools – for bigger and more and better wisdom.

could we say that our sensitivity will increase so much and even our perception will be different?

Guruji: of course: let’s say sensitivity or awareness – they are I think one and the same.

even different disciples: they have the different level of sensitivity?

Guruji: everybody is carrying some difference: their level of karma, their mental states are different; so even though they maybe doing almost same thing – but the results will vary from person to person, initially.

it depends only on sensitivity or it includes many factors?

Guruji: awareness! And development of the brain.

I’m confused: so the awareness is just better feeling from the sense organs, better connection with them?

Guruji: your sense organs are just servants of your brain. They don’t have their individual identity.

attention and awareness: what is the difference?

Guruji: you become attentive after you become aware of something. If you’re not aware – you will never become attentive.

so the technology of yoga – it is development of the brain?

Guruji: finally! And knowing your spirit and making it your friend: so it may agree to live inside you for a little bit longer time. I think I’m first person, who started to say that you can be friends with your spirit. Nobody is preaching this. Nobody is preaching development of the brain.

the spirit also has his/her vast ocean of wisdom and if we will become friends…

Guruji: it may share, yes

so spirit has its own consciousness?

Guruji: yes, and it is very old, billions and trillions years old. From the beginning of Time it is there.

the spirit is carrying all the knowledge about our past incarnations?

Guruji: all of them and even more. I’ve give you the different idea: you’re a book. And book doesn’t know, what is written inside it – only the reader knows. So the spirit is reading your book, and it is well read identity.

back to the topic when we discussed about “I am”; so “I am” it’s a spirit?

Guruji: consciousness! Because spirit give you life – so you started to become aware, self-aware. Like a Skynet in Terminator.

so all the information about our past incarnations: the spirit carries it?

Guruji: yes.

WHO AM I?

when I’m sitting here – I feel some other creature is coming, trying to feel my body?

Guruji: maybe you’re very sensitive – so maybe even every thought have embodiment so you’re feeling your thoughts as some entity. It’s your thoughts.

why the practice given by Ramana Maharshi – to ask “who am I” doesn’t work?

Guruji: to whom?

to seekers

Guruji: I have no idea. I’ve never tried that. Only a person becoming aware in an orphanage, brought up in an orphanage keep asking “who am I?” – otherwise what is the need? As I see – it work for Ramana Maharshi, he is the very respected person; but it doesn’t mean that someone who start copy Ramana Maharshi – he will have exactly the same results.

but he offered this method to every seeker?

Guruji: he was teaching them by his own experience, he was sharing his experience.

he had parampara?

Guruji: no, I don’t think so. We don’t read about his Guru in his life. But these are exceptions: you cannot give an example of such people. They achieve greatness, realization or whatever and that method was the grace of some god or something – so we accept him as an example of it, even this is possible.

is there possibility that if somebody is not attached to the lineage – then his soul will go to its own level of realization?

Guruji: it will take few million births, yes.

maybe Ramana Maharshi was already gone through it?

Guruji: could be, we’re not sure.

what will happen with him after death?

Guruji: he was living on Arunachala, which is considered as Shiva himself: I’m sure he went very high. Otherwise we will not be discussing his name today, he left his impact.

I can’t understand how it is possible: if for example somebody achieved the top of the mountain – so this person can realize any way to the top of the mountain? So: if somebody achieve realization – he could understand any way to realization and share it? So why his method doesn’t work?

Guruji: you see, it was exactly not a method – it was his way of pondering on himself and he was successful in that. Who am i? – ultimately it will go very deep and he will see from where this feeling of being is coming. It’s a pretty deep method if you do it. Instead of chanting it like a mantra – who am I, who am I, - you need to explore yourself; your inner being, your inner conscious.

could it bring the deceiving experience?

Guruji: no, if you just going inside you – what deceiving experience may come?

maybe some false ego come to the surface?

Guruji: no, nothing.

but You said that in yogic state of mind we control our atma?

Guruji: you’re asking this question with only 2% of your brain capacity: so your feeling of being is only 2% of your total being. Even if you continue to ask yourself “who am I?” - you will be using only 2% of your conscious mind. And as a yogi, it is my suggestion that you need to wake up every dormant possibility of yourself and awaken your mind 100%: then your feeling of being – who am i? – will be different. That is for understanding, developing of understanding. We can keep on arguing this – but it worked for him: we’re not sure, how his mind was working. We never know that.

maybe first he reached realization and then start to asking?

Guruji: I think he give the very simple method which is also very deep and mysterious.

but it doesn’t work on our mind?

Guruji: very difficult to say. My point is different: who is discussing about development of your subconscious mind? We’re discussing; but we cannot generalize this statement – that everybody must be talking like that. So give me some credit( smiling). Very gross example: a beggar will also say: I am me. And president Putin can also say: I am me – but it is vast difference of understanding “who am I” between these two individuals. That difference will remain.

CONCEPT OF YOURSELF

when the spirit is going in astral world – it is taking the shape of the last body?

Guruji: if you’re earthbound. It’s just your mind’s concept of yourself. With other birth it will be the concept of another body – so it will change. That’s why we need to know the source.

so we can create some another conception?

Guruji: without conception of the mind then how you will know? That will be your real look. You will know exactly, how you look. It’s very deep thing.

it is formless?

Guruji: no; you will know only then – when you know the all your mind conceptions of yourself.

it could be even not the human shape?

Guruji : it will definitely be not like a human shape.

… now it has a form and is no conscious – and that consciousness you can share. this is what is happening.

CONCLUSION – FOREWORD

when You said about making yourself real in this world of illusion; the question is “how?”

Guruji: again I will give you my old answer: simply by realizing yourself, developing yourself, developing your brain to the 100% capacity – then you will know, how to make yourself real. Till then it’s a hypothetical philosophical discussion.

about making friends with your own spirit and about developing yourself – how to develop?

Guruji: back to the prototype answer: spirit brings life and takes away life – it’s a very boring and dull job of a spirit; simply by developing your brain and your consciousness to 100% capacity you maybe able to create some interest in the spirit. That – yes, she or he may talk to someone to a same level. Undeveloped mind cannot create such interest in the spirit – they don’t care.

again the question from someone who never practiced yoga and see you for the first time: how to develop the consciousness?

Guruji: there are several ways: first thing is to have very good genetics, family background, situational background, social thing and very-very good education.

After that you begin to realize the value of your own brain and it’s expression – mind and its consciousness; then you start to exploring – how I should develop it? Ultimately you will come to the yoga, direct method. I’ve never come across any method ever discussed that brain can be developed. Maybe I’m the first one to stress that point. Either people go to too much divinity or philosophy, devotion – and that’s it.

the collection or database of information hasn’t been introduced to anyone?

Guruji : we have to agree on this – that has to be certain type of development to become aware of this. This is provided by good genetics, family background, social background – so many things.

simply learning new things from the books, lectures and personal experience is accounting as a development?

Guruji: it is counting as not exactly development: increasing awareness. And finally you will ask the question, which is the famous Indian epic, in Brahma sutras asked: after knowing most of the things then the question comes: who is the knower? Then your attention goes to the mind and brain.

at what point this question comes?

Guruji: when you have gone through everything. Till then – it’s just a hypothetical discussion. You must have a little bit of developed brain to agree that it is the brain which is everything. Body is just a supporting system, no more than that.

to sum up things on that level: it sounds like the only way to physically instigate a process is to have diksha of qualified Guru and to start practice what Guru teaches you?

Guruji: I will say diksha is misinterpreted term: it is better to find a Guru who agrees to teach you. This describes better. Initiation, the word diksha is used like low chain nowadays. I’ve seen so many people coming – they have gone through initiation several times. So the word is no longer respectable.

on the physical level the pranayamas together with teachings of Guru, together with the lifestyle of the yoga is the only way to?

Guruji: to develop your brain and to be able to contact with your own spirit first hand.

how many people You see who achieved that by following that rules?

Guruji: looking back in history you can count them on your fingers. Not many.

we’re talking about that who met their own spirits?

Guruji: they became good friends.

from those few how many achieved immortality?

Guruji: all of them. If a spirit will accept you as a friend – it will agree to stay with you forever: that is immortality. But you must provide good living conditions for your spirit and enough entertainment- then the friendship will be interesting otherwise what’s the use?

what kind of entertainment we can imagine?

Guruji: your creative mind! Keep on creating good stories – it will remain interested. And good living conditions – inside the body of course. The spirit will start to take some interest in you.

but what we’re seeing during the practice – kutastha?

Guruji: we just seeing; we’re seeing Michael Jackson’s photographs or videos but it is another thing to be able to say hello to him. then it’s another thing to start the intimate friendship with him. Seeing is the first thing.

but we see exactly the spirit?

Guruji: yes, kutastha literally means immortal spirit.

but it doesn’t see us?

Guruji : after some time. Again back to Michael Jackson; you’re seeing him – but how many people he’ll noticing in the crowd? Somehow you become important to him to come and say hello. Then he will look at you then after some time maybe friendship will start.

does it mean that our mind must be already developed more than 2%?

Guruji: no, it’s a starting point for going beyond 2%. Seeing is believing; but again I noticed that it will take years to understand what we are actually see. It takes time. Good example just came: somebody asked me technical question – I just told him: please explain technical bicycling and you make me understand how to bicycle without ever riding a bicycle. Explain the technics!

enough to catch the balance

Guruji: that’s the point! So go on riding. Few falls, few scratches, then you will catch.

for children is much easier to learn bicycle than to adults

Guruji: they are innocent. That means – innocence is the name of the game. If you’re innocent enough – you will achieve in your balance in no time. Just a point.

now I’m worried

Guruji: everyone is worried now

MAKING YOURSELF REAL

what is making yourself real, how?

Guruji: by discovering yourself and by knowing exactly your existence – why you are here, what for and how long? Then you will also realize that again – your consciousness will develop to the level, you will consider yourself on that level. The more you will develop your consciousness - the more real you will become.

the only way to do it is the yogic practice of Kriya?

Guruji: let’s say – yogic practice. Yes, there is no other method which will only develop your mind, your brain. I was looking mostly all the materials in religions and other systems – but it is only the yoga, who is actually talking about it.

and preservation of your own identity – people worried about that?

Guruji: it is a part of; first your identity will be established – it will become real. Then your existence will be more real than before. Establishing the identity is the first step.

so far it sounds like just another term for many people; how I’ll establish my own identity – I know it’s me? Now I’m the body with the name and documents…

Guruji: we’re gone through details many times; only 2-3% of your brain thinking “I am I” – rest is sleeping, you’re not even aware, who is sleeping there. In Gorakhbodh “who is he” and “who is me” they describe: chetan is “I”, achetan is “he”.

so – waking up the subconsciousness and making it to accept or realizing identity?

Guruji: I think you will become aware of your true identity, that you’re not a small “I” – it’s a very big thing.

people who are going through regression experience – are they approaching that understanding?

Guruji: this regression thing will only establish that the cycle of birth and death continues. And that is a very great thing: if you look at it from absolutely objective point of view – mostly in Christian countries it has been practiced and they don’t accept rebirth. If all the christians are remembering their past birth – that tells us something.

yes, accepting it is becoming very-very popular

Guruji: and it should be done more popular. I think it’s very good news – because in last 2000 years people were taught they’ll have the final judgement – no rebirth, nothing. No they realize that it’s just a story. That’s the very good progress for human mind.

it’s scientific confirmation that your spirit will go forever

Guruji: now it’s established scientific fact.

so Your words were coming very timely – about fortifying the home of spirit

Guruji: you need to provide your spirit the very good living conditions.

what exactly can interest the spirit – he saw so many things?

Guruji: create a story of your life. Most of us – we like to live the life like a cover of fashion magazine. Then we also hope, that this life will be as durable as bible or Gita. Gita and bible are something that people are reading again and again. But all the fashion magazines have not much longevity. We must learn out of it. Give something that spirit will re-read again and again.

what would it be?

Guruji: good life story. Something profound.

DEHI PART 4 OWNER OF THE CAR

how mind is coming into the body?

Guruji: with Narayana.

with dehi?

Guruji: they all come together. When a driver starts a car – he is already make sure, that there is enough fuel and car is clean enough; then owner comes to have a ride – driver is just a driver. He maybe not the owner. Narayana owns the body, dehi is just a driver, and man is conscious mind who takes care of so many things.

does driver know, where he will go?

Guruji: only if owner will tell, where you should go. But the owner goes to sleep – that’s the problem.

dehi has his own consciousness?

Guruji: of course. And the subconscious mind is the owner of the body, who is sleeping. There is no one to tell to the driver where they want to go. So driver with his own consciousness will just move around – that’s it, you will never reach your destination. To reach your destination you need to wake up the owner – so he can give specific order – take me there; and dehi will take you there. That’s why the waking up of your subconscious mind is extremely important.

that’s how freedom starts?

Guruji: I think so, yes. But freedom is another misunderstood thing: freedom is when everything will come for free to you – that is freedom. Too much freedom is not good for health. You can convince yourself in your mind that – I’m free; but until unless the whole society and whole world agrees that you’re free – there is no freedom. I’m free to go naked in Madison Square garden – but I will be arrested for indecent exposure. Then in the court we can ask the question: what is the decent exposure?( laughing). Only immortal can be free. But still I saw them – they respect the social discipline. They are free to observe the social discipline.

Owner also can fire the driver and drive himself. Possibility is there: maybe that’s how immortality begins. If Narayana will wake up – he is almighty, he can do anything. Even he will be able drive the car without a driver.

dehi can seat on the back seat?

Guruji: or to the road side – to say good-bye.

what we see in the practice – is dehi?

Guruji: first – dehi. Then the sleeping Narayana. I’ve discussed them both. I’ve been stressing of so many years – make your subconscious conscious, wake up your sleeping mind. From Gita’s commentary to Shiva Sutras – everywhere.

UNION AND INDIVIDUALITY

To become more aware of your individuality: union is absolutely necessary to realize your individuality.

WE ARE NOT THE SPIRIT - WE ARE OUR OWN CONSCIOUSNESS

Even in vampire series there are fantastic dialogue writers: he is the very honest person. Vampire is saying: it is good to be honest! Because honesty will finally discover the truth - no matter, under how many layers it is. It is good to be honest! And I have to agree with this statement – it is absolutely right!

Those script writers are great people, I will say.

All religions are telling: god lives in the heart. If god lives in the heart and you somehow have access to it and he accepts you: you don’t need any more spirit. God will take care!

very difficult to understand, how it is possible to live without spirit, because mostly we’re thinking that we are the spirit?

Guruji: we are not that spirit, we are our own consciousness. That realization that many people claim: I’m not the body, I’m the spirit – it’s not 100% true.

yes: if you’re the spirit – why you decide to leave the body?

Guruji: again – that is conditioning that making them say it. For real realization you need to go beyond your conditioning. Because too many people said: I’m not the body, I’m the spirit; why they cannot keep it within?

so we’re not the body, we’re not the spirit?

Guruji: we are our own consciousness. what else you are? Spirit is already immortal, god is beyond immortality even; then who is getting nirvana or moksha? Mind is getting nirvana or moksha. Beyond all discriminations and expansions of the consciousness.

Yogiraj uvacha:

Here I will tell you, what is self-realization: the all creation is illusory, it is all illusion. In the creation of illusion when you will make yourself real – that will be self-realization.

WHO WE ARE?

All religions are telling: god lives in the heart. If god lives in the heart and you somehow able to access to him – and he accepts you as a devotee whatever; you don’t need anymore spirit: god will take care.

very difficult to understand how it is possible to live without a spirit because mostly we think that we are that spirit?

Guruji: we are not that spirit, we are our own consciousness. That realisation that many people claim: I’m not the body, I’m the spirit; - it’s not 100% true.

Again – that is conditioning of the mind, which is making them say this. For real realization you need to go beyond your conditioning.

Many people have said: I’m not the body, I’m the spirit: then why they cannot keep it within?

so we are not body, we are not spirit?

Guruji: we are own consciousness. Spirit is already immortal, god is beyond immortality even; then who is getting nirvana or moksha?

Mind is getting nirvana or moksha – beyond all limitations or expansion of the consciousness.

WHO AM I

So, almost all wise people have told us to think, ponder: WHO AM I?

And many people keep thinking: who am I?! And Shailendra Sharma ‘s take on that is:

When will you go deeper into this thing , who am I, you will become aware of the consciousness , which is making you think, Yes, I am!And then, you start to ask question who am I?

So when you will begin to explore the consciousness, you will begin to see its a big ocean of consciousness inside, which we called

THE MIND.

So you go on, go on, go on, exploring the mind also, then you will realise that because you are alive, that’s how is the mind came and consciousness started and feeling that YOU ARE begin.

So you start to explore life itself.

Then after much exploration you realise: because spirit came down, life was brought by the Spirit.

So your attention will go to the spirit. And ultimately, go beyond consciousness

and all the physicality, you will begin to start

trying to communicate with the spirit, which comes from the other side. Nobody knows who created them, and what is their true nature.

And if your approach is just right, it may accept you as a friend. And it can tell you so many things. And your wisdom will be very high very high then.

Think on that!

INDIVIDUALITY OF CONSCIOUSNESS

in some books it is said that when the person becomes enlighten – he become to see everyone and everything like the one?

Guruji: I will answer it when I’ll become enlighten. I’ve read such things, yes.

generally what do You think: is it possible to see everything as one?

Guruji: only I can say: the source of our existence is one: Mother Earth is the core source of our existence. But the individuality will always be there.

Mother Earth is the core source of our physical existence, our body existence?

Guruji: our life depends on Earth.

but what about the spirits?

Guruji: nobody knows the true nature of spirits: maybe they also are coming from Earth – who knows?

we discussed some time back that the spirits have the very different nature and maybe coming from different sources: so these different sources are on Mother Earth?

Guruji: even in our body different type of bacteria are here and there – so on her also. We consider her for the core of the life. But we’re all individuals, different people.

when we will be able to see the consciousness: we will see the parts of one consciousness or we will see totally individual consciousness?

Guruji: always consciousness will remain individual as the wave – but you will also see the basis of whatever existence.

the spirit and the consciousness: are they different?

Guruji: you’re conscious because of your spirit inside.

is it the fixed number of spirits existing or they are added somehow?

Guruji: no idea: their population has never been counted.

so the spirits are the parts of something one?

Guruji: we don’t know exactly: there are different sources for them.

yes, it’s common mistake: I remember I’ve asked you about behaviour of young spirits – who are just indulging themselves – and You said that it’s not the spirits, but the consciousness is young?

Guruji: no, not the spirit: they are too old.

now I’m totally confused: the eternal force, it’s a spirit or it’s a consciousness?

Guruji: Hindus call it Paramatma, supreme spirit.

but who is taking the next incarnation – the spirit or the consciousness?

Guruji: both together.

so they are together forever – the spirit and the consciousness?

Guruji: oh, they can change partners.

what is this notion “I am”? is it the part of the consciousness? Or is it the part of the spirit?

Guruji: because of the spirit you’re conscious and you’re able to think “I am”.

because of the spirit in the body?

Guruji: that gives you life. And what is life? See, the person in coma: he is out. But when he becomes conscious – he is sort of alive again. When the spirit is connecting with the body – you’re becoming conscious of that you’re alive. Consciousness depends on coming of the spirit.

what about the name of the spirit? Is it the frequency of vibration in which he or she exists?

Guruji: no: your name and you are different things. Your existence doesn’t depend on your name.

we talked about string theory: is it possible to see them?

Guruji: yes, it’s very much possible. If the person is physicist – he has gone through string theory; so his perception is with the string theory at the back of his mind. If some person will don’t know about it – he may see the same thing, but he will describe it in a different way.

Does individuality «I am» possesses any qualities?

A: Of course, your individuality «You are» is actually possessing everything which you have carrying, all your memories from the past, this family line or genetic line, anything, everything you are carrying with the feeling ‘I am’. It is all pervading; it goes very deep. That’s why knowing and realizing ‘who am I’ is so important. You will remember everything whatever you have experienced in this genetic lineage.

LETS GO TO THE BEACH!

I was asked, that okay,

we are practicing Yoga , we are studying ultimately, what is our destination?

I said: we will go to the beach, where every spec of sand as a universe an itself, And you will be lying by beside the vast ocean of consciousness!

That is our destination. We are going towards it!

Let’s go to the beach !

BEGINNING OF REALISATION

Question: Guruji, how realisation begins?

Guruji: That’s how!

Well, I will say that you will become aware that you are realising something…

When you realise you are not that important to the world.

You are just another insignificant fellow.

And you think you are important.

From that moment, you will become more serious. And your journey towards more serious realisations will begin.

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When you have done something, that you will become part of the memory of the Society.

That will make you important.

If nobody is remember you, you are nothing.

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I will say… I will add one more thing.

You may not be so important to society and the world. You can be the most insignificant fellow, but You are the hero of your life story.

So for your story – you are important enough.

Remember that!

YOUR TRUE NATURE

in Your book You’re writing that in the state of samadhi the sense of individuality never dissolved?

Guruji: and the main thought comes to your mind that: yes, I am.

so many so-called spiritual people are writing about merging in the universal consciousness…

Guruji: well, my experience is: your individuality will remain, though it will change its nature lately. But it will remain.

maybe they were talking about nirvana – when you merge into universal consciousness?

Guruji: no, nirvana is: when you have become immortal and you decide to leave the body behind. Only then it will be nirvana: otherwise everybody is dying. Dying is not attaining nirvana.

how the nature changes? It gets the best of its abilities?

Guruji: it is not changing, the true nature comes up. Most of our social behaviour is highly hypocritic. When your boss is shouting at you, you are thinking of cutting his nose and make him run naked on the road but you said “yes, sir”( laughing).

When you become hyper crazy – then hypocrisy begins.

Better to be your own boss – you can do whatever with yourself. You cannot allow any idiot to do things with you.

WHO AM I OR HOW TO CORRECTLY ASK A QUESTION

It’s not philosophical question – who am i? only the person, brought up in the orphanage and not knowing the name of his biological parents – he will ask this question: who am i? You should ask this question from a different way: I would love to know about my spirit? I don’t know much about it. That will be proper question. Think on that! This philosophy I’m hearing for many years. You’re too young to ask this questions – usually dedushkas ask such questions.

I feel, it’s my question?

Guruji: you should think from today: I would love to know about my spirit. About spirit I don’t know – from where it came and where it will go. About my body I know – that it was created by mother and father – not about the spirit.

that was what I mean

Guruji: I begin to teach you, how to phrase your question properly. Only the right questions get the right answers.

The most prototype answer to this question – who am i?:

you’re very image of god,

you’re children of god

god is blamed for everything.

That’s why he remains hiding. If something go wrong – every woman cry: o god, what have you done?! So he ran away long back.

WHO IS ATHEIST?

Guruji, the question is, Your opinion: who is atheist?

Guruji: Well, generally it is taken that the person who doesn’t believe in God is called an atheist

But, I think that the a person who does not believe in himself, Is the real atheist here.

Think on that!

ATHEIST IS THE ONE WHO DOES NOT BELIEVE IN HIMSELF.

How to connect the term ATHEIST and believing in YOURSELF?

Guruji: It is very simple, If he is believes in himself, he will also become aware that he is alive, and he will also think deeply and he will think that because I am breathing that’s why I am alive. And because I am alive so I able to think, I am conscious also. If he is a deep thinker , he will reach that conclusion.

And why he is able to think? Because he is a conscious , he has a mind which is a ocean of consciousness. And if he will go even more deeply, than he will began realise the presence of the spirit, which brings life, and gives him imagination and consciousness.

And if he is able to think even more about the spirit and be friendly with HIM, maybe he will begin to be aware of some very great power, wich is creating everything!

So the atheism, if we will think deeply Will actually, will make him believer in a very very

deep way, Which is simple devotee of GOD will never think.

So atheist is the one who does not believe in himself!

The whole life he was asking – who am I? I’m not understand it. Only a person who was brought up to the orphanage like an orphan will continue to ask this question – who am I? if you know your mother and your father and your kula – you won’t have to ask “who am I?” this is India. If you will just sit quiet here in Govardhan without talking – in the beginning people will laugh at you, mock at you, provoke you: but if you continue sit in silent- food will start coming your way, some money will start coming your way, you will have some devotee also, someone start pray to you.

that is the difference between India and Christianity: there you can be declared as saint only after death.

Guruji: because only after death it is guarantee – he will commit no sin. While living it is always a chance for the next moment. India is different: you can be the saint during lifetime. You have to prove your holiness. Even if you start to use all kind of bad words – different devotees will come to you. They will count the number of bad words are used and come gamble on that. India is great.

SAMBHAVOPAYA

1.THE CONSCIOUSNESS IS SOUL.

the soul, as we discovered is something which is mortal?

Guruji: the feeling of “I” – if you’re conscious, you will have this feeling “I am” – that is Atma; if you translate the word “atma” literally – simply means “I am”.

could we say that the limited consciousness with the body together is atma?

Guruji: any level of consciousness, where you’re feeling that “you are” – that is atma. 2%; when you will realize 100% - your atma will be much more powerful and bigger; feeling of being will be sublime.

subconsciousness is beyond atma?

Guruji: no, it is sleeping; when it will wake up – it will be atma. You are – I am.

but nowadays we have only partial atma or what?

Guruji: no, we have just partial idea of the atma. That’s why for realising your atma we need to wake up all our consciousness and develop your mind so you will be able to tolerate your atma. That’s why I keep indicating that self-realization is a very big thing. Many people claim: I’ not body, I’m a spirit – it is nothing until unless you wake up your subconsciousness and you realize – yes, I am: that feeling is different.

42. INNER SELF BECOMES A STAGE

Guruji: inner antar atma – it becomes like a stage, and jivatma, the soul is the dancer; and he live his eternity in its entertainment.

in that moment the consciousness unites with the Time itself?

Guruji: of course, yes.

what will happen with the consciousness when we will merge with the source, with Ishwar?

Guruji: it will develop even more.

but it remains with us?

Guruji: yes, individuality will remain and it will continue more and more and more. It will always remain connected.

where we will be with the Ishwar? In Alakh Niranjan?

Guruji: in your heart first. He lives in the heart.

but is it possible on that level remain in physical world?

Guruji: of course, even remain in physical body – but of different quality. It is impossible to imagine the person’s personality and the way of life, who is connected directly with the Ishwar in the heart. What he is thinking, how he will react, what his imagination is touching – we don’t know. Too high.

what comes first: friendship with the dehi or the merging of the conscious and subconscious mind?

Guruji: first subconscious and conscious thing starts. That will attract dehi: yes, he’s or she’s doing something. Otherwise there is no way to attract attention. Then dehi will agree to remain inside the body.

but he doesn’t lose his individuality?

Guruji: no, never. That is what they say together forever. They will remain separate – mind and dehi – that’s why the communication and discussions will continue, till eternity.

if the person has the feeling that he was separated from some supreme being or supreme spirit?

Guruji: how do you know? It’s just religious thing. Most of the bhakti cults are actually preaching this. If it is your own discovery – then you will accept it.

but what if it’s the inner feeling?

Guruji: that means it’s the feeling of the child who has gone from home to study. When the education will be over – he may be able to create his own home. Because the old home will no longer be there.

Q:

“yogin knows all the possibilities” – what does it mean?

Guruji:

whatever possibilities you have inside you – you will be know that. that is part of yourself knowledge. Not self-knowledge, not the time, not body- I’m the spirit; whatever possibilities the body is carrying -possibilities of possibilities of possibilities. It’s a long way. We already have it: just need to discover all the possibilities. That’s the main point.

Who tried to discover the possibilities? Only person, who is able to thought – or become disciple of Shailendra Sharma.

Most of the religious teachings are to close down your possibilities and surrender yourself to the god.

That means you will never do anything except killing people in the name of god.

Q:

simplest possibility…

Guruji:

that is the only possibility

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Duality

…duality or not duality – leave it to the philosophers. And see all around the world – everything looks like duality. But the life source is one. But still we are individuals.

Q: I’ve studied quantum physics. And it said that everything is energy. And we are all one energy. We have center of the atom and their electrons around it. And everything is one energy. It is significant to me to understand why we are not?

Guruji: I will say it is very good knowledge for quantum physics who is studying it. But from the grass root level everything looks different to me. And then physics also is saying that energy can not be created and can not be destroyed. Then why it is also the energy crisis all over the world? You can not create it, you can not destroy it.

Q: yes, I know, it is always the flow, you can’t create…

Guruji: and even the murderer and the corpse. If the corpse will absolutely believe in physics – will go free. According to the physics nobody can’t touch anybody. It is impossible to touch. But only scientists know it.

Q: it exists, but we don’t feel that.

Guruji: you will find out: only after you begin to tap in the potential in your mind will begin to develop your consciousness – then maybe some awareness will develop. So first of the first: first you have to know yourself, whether you are creation of God or you just appear on yourself or you are just reaction of Mother Earth, something. First find it out. Your breathe – the basis of your life – make it your friend. Then it will teach you about life. Then we will explore whether it is duality or not-duality. Leave it to the philosophers. That means that if I will eat – your hunger should go away, if we are one.

Q: but when you are hungry and you are perhaps angry I can feel it too.

Guruji: only the emotions, because your mind is very sensitive. But if you will eat, and I am hungry – my stomach will not feel that you are eating. Go by that.